I’m halfway between excited and nervous. I’ve been waiting for this so I’m excited to finally be called. Yet I don’t know what I’m going to find, and that makes me nervous.
Roommates are concerned that I will be overwhelmed by the victims’ emotionality. F took me aside tonight and told me to protect myself. I know he means to build up a psychic shield, surround myself with white light kind of thing. Mostly he kept saying for me to remember it’s not my fault, there’s only so much I can do, and take care of myself.
I have packed, unpacked and repacked. I want to get down to one suitcase. I figure, they’re going to give me equipment to manage as well as my suitcase and purse. I don’t want a ton of stuff. I mean, I do want a ton of stuff, but I can’t manage it all. I’ll bring my computer, headphones and all. And my sketch book. And a glue stick. I think I’ll throw a pair of scissors in my luggage, since I’ll be checking a bag.
Meds are in my purse. Contacts and glasses will go in my purse too. As did makeup. I did look for another purse and couldn’t find one I liked. Now I’m glad to have the extra room.
I got to see my daughter E today. We ran some errands and I gave her my car to use. I’m not sure about this. I think, it’s not in good shape, what if something happens while she’s using it? It gets towed and I can’t get it back. Then I’m without a car. I don’t know how long I’ll be deployed, so $25 a day for storage times who knows how many days. I’d lose the stuff that’s in the car, some printed material, some knitting, all my stuffies. It would make me very upset. So I told her, no using the car. She can use it to get her stuff from V. But no joy rides. And tonight she had K pick her up to go visit a friend, so she is trying to respect my wishes.
Charli the kitty is all over my suitcase and she yells at me every time I come into the bedroom. She is upset that I’m leaving but I can’t take her with me. F and L will look after Charli and Momo so that’s something I don’t have to worry about.
I made sure F, E, and my cousin all have each other’s phone numbers. If anything happens, I want them to be able to contact each other. Not that anything will happen. It’s a precaution. I should text them all from my work phone too so they have that number.
I think I’ve got it all covered. One last load of laundry in process. Extra suitcase packed in case I’m there more than a month. I think, I really do think, I’m almost ready.