Kiss5Tigers

The 5 Tigers represent the big things in life. This blog is about facing them.


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On My Way

I’m deployed.

I’m halfway between excited and nervous.  I’ve been waiting for this so I’m excited to finally be called.  Yet I don’t know what I’m going to find, and that makes me nervous.

Roommates are concerned that I will be overwhelmed by the victims’ emotionality.  F took me aside tonight and told me to protect myself.  I know he means to build up a psychic shield, surround myself with white light kind of thing.  Mostly he kept saying for me to remember it’s not my fault, there’s only so much I can do, and take care of myself.

I have packed, unpacked and repacked.  I want to get down to one suitcase.  I figure, they’re going to give me equipment to manage as well as my suitcase and purse.  I don’t want a ton of stuff.  I mean, I do want a ton of stuff, but I can’t manage it all.  I’ll bring my computer, headphones and all.  And my sketch book.  And a glue stick.  I think I’ll throw a pair of scissors in my luggage, since I’ll be checking a bag.

Meds are in my purse.  Contacts and glasses will go in my purse too.  As did makeup.  I did look for another purse and couldn’t find one I liked.  Now I’m glad to have the extra room.

I got to see my daughter E today.  We ran some errands and I gave her my car to use.  I’m not sure about this.  I think, it’s not in good shape, what if something happens while she’s using it?  It gets towed and I can’t get it back.  Then I’m without a car.  I don’t know how long I’ll be deployed, so $25 a day for storage times who knows how many days.  I’d lose the stuff that’s in the car, some printed material, some knitting, all my stuffies.  It would make me very upset.  So I told her, no using the car.  She can use it to get her stuff from V.  But no joy rides.  And tonight she had K pick her up to go visit a friend, so she is trying to respect my wishes.

Charli the kitty is all over my suitcase and she yells at me every time I come into the bedroom.  She is upset that I’m leaving but I can’t take her with me.  F and L will look after Charli and Momo so that’s something I don’t have to worry about.

I made sure F, E, and my cousin all have each other’s phone numbers.  If anything happens, I want them to be able to contact each other.  Not that anything will happen.  It’s a precaution.  I should text them all from my work phone too so they have that number.

I think I’ve got it all covered.   One last load of laundry in process.  Extra suitcase packed in case I’m there more than a month.  I think, I really do think, I’m almost ready.


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Towed

My car got towed last night at 11:10.

I need $300 to get it back.

So here’s the deets:

I live in a mobile home park with roommates.  We have 3 cars and 2 parking spaces.  Usually we just tetris all 3 cars into the allotted space.  Now the roommates own the place, so they get the “real” parking spaces and I fit in across the end of the driveway.

I went out to a support group yesterday afternoon and when I got back, they were out.  I parked on the side of the street in front of the house with plans to move the car later.

Roommates got home about 10:30.  They had been grocery shopping so I helped bring the groceries in.  We finished about 11:00.  If we had been 5 minutes longer, we would have seen the tow truck.

“You’re car still needs to be moved,” said L.  Well.  I was in the middle of something and figured I had time.  I knew the mobile home park had a parking curfew, but I thought it was midnight.  And of course I got wrapped back up in what I was doing and forgot.  Not that it matters, I was probably already towed by the time L reminded me.

So the place wants $300.  I don’t have $300.  I am scrambling for it even as I type this.  I looked at an online personal loan but the interest rate is over 350% and the payments are greater than I can commit to.  I looked into title loans but I drive a 98 so I can’t get enough money.  I am calling in favors from friends and selling a corset on ebay.  I’m going to see what else I can sell.  I have some hats I’ve made and other little items.  I’m really stressed.

Here is a link to the corset, if you’re interested:

corset on ebay