Kiss5Tigers

The 5 Tigers represent the big things in life. This blog is about facing them.

One of Those Days

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Sleepy. I have dozed most of the day.

I did not make it to my artist group meeting this morning. My alarm went off at 7 and I dropped back off until 8:37, too late to get there by 9. I want to go but I had several early mornings this week and I will be up early both Saturday and Sunday.

Saturday I have the first class in the Peer Support Counselor series. It’s 6 hours and I’m thinking I may need snacks. I may have to run out tonight and get some drinks and snacks for class.

Sunday I have brunch with R and afternoon visit with K. No Artist’s Way meeting this week, which is fine. I am working on the exercises for week 2 still.

I tried to watch a documentary called The Last Shaman but I fell asleep. It’s about a depressed college student from Massachusetts and he trek to find ayahuasca. I don’t know if he found it helpful or not because of the nap. I hope he did. I’m not sure I care enough to watch it again, though I might.

Charli the kitty has slept on my bed all day. She is suddenly awake and demanding attention. Momo is awake too but he is chill.

So the exercise for journaling for today was to right a list of things we enjoy doing. I wrote the 20, then added 5 more. In theory, the point of the exercise is that we don’t spend enough time doing what we enjoy. I found for me that I didn’t have to pick 2 things to try to incorporate into my week. I already was planning to do about 5 things from the list. I guess I’m not blocked? Except I feel a lack of inspiration. I want to make stuff but I don’t know what to make. Where do people come up with their ideas? I don’t seem to have any.

I have been hungry all day. Rather frustrating. I keep nibbling and snacking but I never feel full. I ate crackers, spinach dip and crackers, a crab tortilla roll up, coffee, chicken, pasta, a strip of Girl Scout cookies with milk, a chocolate ice cream bar. I could still eat. I am out of nuts and deviled ham. Nuts would be good. Maybe I should get some for my class snacks. I am out of foods, though, so a trip to the grocery store would be a good thing. I might make it to the local convenience store.

Laundry is in the dryer and I need a shower, so come to think of it, I probably won’t make it to the store. Maybe I’ll wake up early enough to go before class, that would be good.

I did call the unemployment office. They said I wasn’t paid because the government did not confirm that I wasn’t working any longer. I asked the agent if there was any way to send a reminder. She put me on hold and came back to say that there is a 2 week limit for a response and they hadn’t heard anything, so she was going to update my account so I could get paid. Still not paid today, but I apply for payment again on Sunday. I need to file a new claim too for the days worked in September to December. I counted, and it’s 92 days so hopefully that’s long enough for a new claim.

I need to figure out employment.

Author: Allison Leonard / Kiss5Tigers

I like sci-fi movies, and I noticed that I like the noir ones best. They are almost universally set in a sort of post-apocalyptic dystopia. I later realized, I find them comforting and familiar, probably because I live there, at least in my inner life. Perhaps things are not as bleak as they seem, or perhaps I am simply learning to keep a better attitude. This is the chronicle of my adventures. May you find something valuable here.

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