The 5 Tigers represent the big things in life. This blog is about facing them.

Coming Down Again

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I feel the mania slowing down.  It started last night.  I was working on my mailing list project.  I have this old mailing list, probably 500 people from family to mail art groups to online friends.  I decided to try to send everyone on the list a little note.  The idea is, some will come back which I can remove from the list.  Some will be ignored, so I’ll keep the address but probably won’t send them much.  Some will answer me, and those I will answer back.  Of course I was also working InCoWriMo, remember?  28 letters in 28 days?  Last weekend I wrote 22 letters.  This weekend I have written more than 50.  I was so ADD and obsessive, the short letters were a perfect mix.  But as I have been working on the mailing list project, I have found myself feeling bogged down.  This is GOOD.  It means my energy is leveling off and I’m not driven to accomplish an unreasonable project.  Now I will finish it, but it might take me a month or more

Also, I went to the grocery store yesterday.  I picked up milk, cereal and tea.  I tried to buy other stuff, I really did.  I looked for St Patrick’s cards (none), Easter stickers (also none), a magazine (nothing interesting), snack food (not appealing), etc. etc.  And I only bought what I came in there to get, for a total of $8.00.  The cashier was the best part of the whole thing.  I think they were a trans woman, because they dressed and talked like a woman but they were talking about their partner, not their husband or boyfriend, in the context of common law rights.  They just kept on talking no matter who was standing there in a  sort of interactive monologue.  You can’t really call it a conversation because no input was actually needed from the customer.  It was very entertaining.

So less obsession, less shopping, and now I’m a little tired.  All of it good signs that I am settling down.  I get tomorrow off for Presidents’ Day so I am seeing my general doctor.  I have to remember to fast tonight after dinner.  I’m going to ask him to do a thyroid panel for me since a lot of issues I have overlap symptoms of low thyroid.  It’s all good.  And it’s getting better.

Author: Allison Leonard / Kiss5Tigers

I like sci-fi movies, and I noticed that I like the noir ones best. They are almost universally set in a sort of post-apocalyptic dystopia. I later realized, I find them comforting and familiar, probably because I live there, at least in my inner life. Perhaps things are not as bleak as they seem, or perhaps I am simply learning to keep a better attitude. This is the chronicle of my adventures. May you find something valuable here.

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