Here it is, spring, and I’m entering a down cycle. No fun, this. All I want to do is sleep or maybe go shopping. Only I have no money or transportation for shopping, so sleep it is.
I want to get out. I want to get out of my skin and escape and sleep and fly. It makes no sense, just up and down, contradictory feelings. I want an adventure. I have one coming up in a month but I want one now.
I bought canvases but I don’t know what to paint. Hey, 8 for $20, then 30% off, they were less than $2 each, very cool. I have 3 that need a topcoat, then I’d like to take them down to Cafe Brazil and see if they’ll post them for sale. Right now they have a matte finish and I think gloss will be better, it gives the brown tissue more depth.
I have no focus. I feel like I’m struggling with basic things like homework and filling my day. I can’t stay on task. A month ago I had SO MUCH to do, now I don’t even want to check my email.
I just hope I can make it through work tomorrow. I don’t feel like I’m doing well and I don’t know how to fix it. Hopefully this downshift will be speedy then heading back up again.